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Yesterday was hard. I found out that my little cousin, Skylar will have to have surgery on her head she has tumors. Now this is possibly the sweetest, caring, hopeful, loving little girl you could ever meet. She could never think of doing anything but good to anyone. She is truly a blessing to everyone she meets. I cant quite comprehend why this could happen, now used to I would just take it in stride and not think twice about it just being the way it was going to be. Unfortunately now, I must ask why? How could this happen? Whats the reasoning? I wish these questions didn't pop up in my head but for now they do. I can only pray desperately for this little girl. I will do this. I know God will hold her in the palm of His hand. I do know this. I will have faith for her, her mom and those who have come in contact with this lovely little lady.
I will push the questions aside and try to not get to deep into questioning God. Its weird to because in English class we talked over Idealism and how it changes as we get older because we get beaten down continuously until we become hard and bitter. I never thought that this would happen when it comes to my Jesus nor do I want it to happen, I will fight this. I will get my faith and hope back. The devil will not take this from me, I will cling to my Father even harder. I will fight.
Hmm, what else has been going on. Had a really tough day at school yesterday, apparently I am the only conservative/republican in my speech class and our group discussion would be War in Iraq. Which means opinions would be the whole class disagreeing with me. It was lovely :). Gotta love them haters. I do believe that the words, “All that Obama has accomplished in his presidency is buy a dog” came out of my mouth. Apparently I'm good at pissing people off, even when I'm not trying. Ha, who woulda thunk it!
Hmm, what else has been going on. Had a really tough day at school yesterday, apparently I am the only conservative/republican in my speech class and our group discussion would be War in Iraq. Which means opinions would be the whole class disagreeing with me. It was lovely :). Gotta love them haters. I do believe that the words, “All that Obama has accomplished in his presidency is buy a dog” came out of my mouth. Apparently I'm good at pissing people off, even when I'm not trying. Ha, who woulda thunk it!
I want everyone to like me so bad, ha not a lot of people realize how bad I want friends. I do, really do but I will never compromise my beliefs to be popular. I can't do it. I will stand alone, if thats what it takes to stand for my beliefs.
Ha, not a huge fan of any of my classes either, but these are the basics, gotta get them outta the way so I can enjoy it. Thank God, my major is not psychology, math, english or speech. Not a big fan of those classes dude.
Things that have been on my mind lately: Really really really wanna start practicing my drums more, I wanna learn to play the keyboard, I need to work on getting a 6 pack before next summer, I gotta apply at more places, need a 2nd job, need a car BAD. Ha just a few things!
Okay blah, Ive totally realized how depressing this blog is! Ah okay happy things that are going on: I'm getting to go to alottttt of concerts in the next 3 months. Honor Society (3 times), Love & Theft, Jason Aldean, Dave Barnes, Carter Twins, The Fray & Jessie James. Possibly more too! We all know how much concerts make me happy! Jeeeez :D! Big smilesss about thatttt! I have some really great friends in my life now, super happy :DD. I love thinking about moving to Nashville, that makes me UBERR happy.
I just need to really cherish each moment, Im always waiting for something to happen, or wanting something to happen. I NEED to be happy in the moment I'm in. I want to figure that out! I need to enjoy this time, even through the trials.
I believe that is all for today my loves.
“You are all around me-in front and in back- and have put your hand on me. Where can I go to get away from your Spirit? Where can I run from You? If I rise with the sun in the east and settle in the west beyond the sea, even there you would guide me. With your right hand you would hold me.”
Psalm 139:5,7,9-10
lovelaughlive,
lindsay grace
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I will update this more :)
