rainy days are magical :)

If you were to meet your ten-year-old self, what would you tell her?

wow. I'd have an abundance of knowledge yet no clue what to say to little lindsay. ha.

I think I would say, don't waste as much time on people because pretty much everyone thats in your life won't be there for long. Spend more time with your mom, brother, grandmother & granddaddy cause in the end they're still gonna be there. Be creative, don't be scared to be yourself. Be more outgoing cause your gonna hit an age where it all comes out and maybe you wouldnt be such a loud mouth when you get older if you get some of it out now. Save all the money you can! Work so much harder on high school than anything else. You're gonna meet a little boy one summer at a volunteer service and he's gonna steal your heart & change your life forever. Your best friend will fall in love as soon as ya'll get into high school and won't ever fall out of it, let go of her before she lets go of you. Your mom will always have your back. When it comes to actually dating guys well just don't. None that come your way is gonna be your Todd so just don't waste your time. You're gonna have alot of people come in your life talking alot of talk but they won't back it up, don't trust easily. Friends are gonna come and go, family is gonna turn their back on you, your mom & micah. Your gonna smile alot. Face alot of fears. Achieve more than you thought you could. Push past your limits, face more fears & smile more. Life is gonna take some turns you never expected and make you happier than you thought possible at times. Oh yeah and the whole not eating thing?! Not a good idea! ha! Always make jokes out of everything, it will get on plenty of peoples nerves but do it anyway! Don't be so afraid of driving. God is ALWAYS gonna be your rock. Never doubt your faith, never let the so called Christians you meet make you change your faith. God is there and He absolutely holds your life in His hands. Love Him always with everything you have.

always dream.

oh yeah && don't be such a baby! suck it up.

be a good girl,

18 year old

Colllegee freshman :/

Sorry no blogging lately, Im not the best writerrr so until I just get the writing bug I tend to just think a bunchh and not jot down.
Anywaysss, so I had school orientation yesterday which was great and exciting and scary. Im so sure that Im suppose to be in college but the money part completely freaks me out. Like how do people afford all of this, Im completely freaked beyond anything ive ever been freaked about. Like all the adult worries of money have officially hit lindsay grace.
Okay so here are the things I need money for asap!

College Tuition.
Books.
Parking Pass.
Plus saving for a car.
Insurance.
ughh! plus just like everyday expenses. If only all this money wasnt due at once.
So currently I am freaking out and trying to find ways to figure all this out.
My sperm donor makes to much to get any kind of aid, yet he won't pay for my school and my mom barely makes enough to support us every week.
So def in alot of prayer this week and just hoping some kind of bag drops in my lap with a money sign on it :) that'd be amazing. But God is great and He knows what He's doing. I sure don't.

Life is fantastic, the sun is shining today and I love it.
Everything will work I know! :) Ugh to this whole growing up thing. I shoulda been more prepared, stupid me!


Anyways things that are making my day better today :)))) are:




Green monster :) a cold one.


Sunshineeee :)


getting my hair colored :) it needs it so bad.

&&



jason mraz <3 him and his music :)

lovelovelove,
linds.

S.A.T

all this time i waS wasting hoping you would come around
i’ve been giving out cHances everytime and all you do is let me down
and its taking me this long but baby i figured you out
and you think it will be finE again but not this time around

you don’t have to call anymore
i won’t pick up the phone
this is the last straw
don’t want to hurt anymore
and you can tell me that you’re sorry
but I won’t believe you baby like i did before
you’re not sorry no more, no more, no

lookin’ so innoCent
i might believe you if i didn’t know
could’a loved you all my life
if you hAdn’t left me waiting in the cold
and you got your share of secrets
and i’m tired of beiNg last to know
and now you’re asking me to listen
cause its worked each time before

But you don’t have to call anymore
I won’t pick up the pHone
This is the lAst straw
Don’t want to hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you’re sorry
But I don’t belieVe you baby like I did bEfore
You’re not sorry no no no noo
You’re not sorry no no no noo

You had me calling for you honey
And it never would’ve gone away no
You use to shine so bright
But I watched our love it fade

So you don’t have to call anYmore
I won’t pick up the phOne
This is the last straw
There’s nothing left to beg for
And yoU can tell me that you’re sorry
But I won’t believe you baby like I did before

jimmy jimmy jimmy

Outside My Window


kinda gloomy weather, perfect nap weather. just wishh i was cuddled up in bed :)



I Am Thinking
that I am not a fan of aunt flo :( poo! but kinda i feel kinda bubbly today tooooo! ah and the sun just came out!



I Am Thankful
for my best friend/mother :). for my awesome brother. for the sun. for every breathe God is giving me. for my granddaddy. for my fishy, jimmy mcnulty :). for those perfect moments that happen in most of my days. andddd for monster. :)



From The Kitchen
im at work so no kitchen here :(.



I Am Wearing
jeans :(. a white flowy tank. black scarf. like 8 bracelets. 2 hair ties on my wrist. my ring i got from momma. and a ring i got at american eagle. diamond studs in all 5 holes. and black flip flops.
I Am Creating
a painting for mine & my brudders bathroom. its black with a huge pink flower, sounds ordinary but hopefully it wont turn out that way.



I Am Going
to be at work till 5 today then i havent decided what to do tonight.



Around The House
well i believe my brother is in his room. nicky is roaming the house. sperm donor is in bed. skynyrd is sleeping under the bed. jimmy is floating around. :)



One of My Favorite Things
lady antebellum <3

A Few Plans for the Rest of the Week
Work. Get classes scheduled. Finish my bathroom. Go to Generation. NJ Pageant. Holli's Wedding. Live and love life. :)

2 of my favorite things ^ = my fishy jimmy mcnulty and a green monster :))))

Ive got a roofff over my headd and shoees on my feet

itss alrighttt :)

I haven't had internet all weeek so thats why no post. Iveeee missedd you my little blogg!

I hadd a decentt weeek, I was pretty sick for the weeekend which blew cause I dearly love the 4th of Julyy.

So I mainly just caught up on my movie watching with my brudder.

We watched...

They were both really amazing but CCBB was my favorite!

Quote from CCBB:

For what it's worth: it's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.

Like my favorite quote of all time. Im always wanting to leave this place, just so I can start over with people thats never knew me, or my family, or any of the crap that Ive done or been through. Just so when people see me they could have a better view of me. One thats not tarnished by whatever they know. I dunno but just reading this quote gives me real hope that one day I will be able to go and start over somewhere else. Thats my biggest dream. I dont even know if I want anyone to go with me. She will still wanna bring the past with her. When I leave, Im leaving...absolutely everything. I want to so bad, jeez thats my biggest desire. I mean if only people could really look like God looks, all I had to do was ask Him one time to forgive me and He's not only forgiven but forgotten it. Truly amazing, I wish we could all do that.

Wow thats totally not how I pictured this blog going but okay it did.

Anywayssss, so Im back at work, ready to be off so I can enjoy my summer time. Its gone way to fasttt ugh I just want it to stoppp so I can bask in the sun alitttle longer before the fall hits and life goes nuts!

Well thats really ittt, I was sick so nothing too exciting happened! Maybe next weekend :))))

Here are a few of my favorite thingsss today:

Monsterrrs: the green one today :)

Rick & Bubba showww! :))

laughlovelive,

lindsss

Listenin to: Alright-Darius Rucker :)))))))

Fridays are alrighttt.

They're much better if I dont have to work but its all goood.

I had a pretty good night last night, I cleaned and organized stuff in my room which makes me happpy. I felt very productivee. My room is small but I love it, its like my own little dorm, its more me than anything Ive ever lived in. I'll put pictures up soon, Im constantly changing it.

I hung out with my brother some to, I've done that alot here lately and really enjoyed it.

My Brudder:

I mean we always grew up it just being us two but we were never really close. This year Ive really realized that he's gonna be there always and I appreciate that more than anything. Plus he's gotten me addicted to possibly the most brillant tv show ever made: The Wire.

Its amazing, intelligent, funny, real, sad, just amazing.

Must watch itttttt.

Anyways just a look into my day.

God is Good :) Im Blessed.

Its another sunny day.

lovin&livin,

Linds

listening to: Cigaretts-The Wreckers

7 months in..Oh Nine

Just thinkin back at all thats happened this year. Been a muchhh better year compared to 08' so glad that year is ova. Its been trying but I just feeeel happy. :)))))things thats happened, just so farrr..



.-Graduated HighSchool. c/o 09. Went to City Stages for the first time. Cried. Lost a best friend. Reconnected with some old friends. Prayed. Went to Kenny Chesney Concert. Saw my favorite band, Lady Antebellum in concert. Saw Staind & 3 doors down in concert. Had my first party. Fell in love with country music. Quit watching One Tree Hill. Cussed. Got mad at myself for cussin. Prayed more. Went to the Generation. Made new friends. Got a Wii. Wanted to run away. Went bowling. Watched UNC & the Lakers win their Championships. Got a twitter. Moved from Warrior to Gardendale permanetly. Moved my office at work. Drove to Birmingham for the 1st time. Stayed single :). Missed being a kid. Wanted to be on my own already. Got addicted to The Wire. Became a fan of PBR. Went to the movies. Got nervous. Became best friends with my mommy again. Spent a couple nights at the hospital. Took chances. Slept less than ever. Gave love. Received love. Held hands. Kissed. Hugged people. Accepted change. Ran. Screamed. Danced. Sang. Rode my bicycle. Laughed. Made people laugh. Learned how to spell Copper. Ate sushi. Dyed my hair a color I actually like.




& its only julyyy =DDD



listening to: Lucky- Jason Mraz feat. Colbie Caillat


linds