let it snow let it snow let it snow.

I hate how much time I take in between posts.

blah. sucky me.

anyways. So 2009 is almost over. Definitely been thinking about this year and next year and 2008. Just things have changed but I dont feel like I have, and to be honest that severely disappoints me.
If anything Ive lost faith in things. I hate that. Aren't I suppose to get better with age and time? Why do I seem to keep becoming this person I hate? Why can I not control myself better? I guess most people would say how this year has changed them and how they are better for it but I cant say that. I'm worst. Its almost over though and even though I dont believe that I have to wait till 12am January 1st to change it will be nice to have a new year to just go back to that person I was before alot of this and maybe a better version of that person but definitely get rid of this girl, this girl NEEDS to go. She's not my friend, she's negative on herself, negative on the world, negative towards God, harsh, potty mouth, faithless, hopeless and the complete opposite of who I want Lindsay Grace McKeever to be. So 2010 is definitely going to be more of a renewing, I have some amazing people in my life so I can no longer blame it on my surroundings, I can take full responsibility for who I am and who I let into my life. I need to take control and put God first. I hate this but Im excited that I've finally realized, I must've hit some kind of low, but Im glad.

So back to the 3 things/people that I am thankful for:

Emily Dowling

This little girl means more to me than most things in life. She is a ray of sunshine no matter what. She teaches me more than I could ever begin to teach her. She is so much of a better person than I could ever imagine being. I love her with every ounce in my heart and thank GOD He put her in my life. She gives me hope for the word FAMILY. She is caring, loving, good, amazing, faithful, best little sister :)

Christy Miller Book Series

This book series saves me. Growing up I didn't have a huge group of friends, ha as lame as it sounds books became my friends and I can always grab these books and feel like it takes me back to a safe world full of people with love. This books helped me more in my walk with Christ than anything else I know. I will foreverr be grateful to Robin Jones Gunn for writing me friends and giving me Faith when I needed it.

My Brother, Micah

I love my brother so much. He has the best sense of humor of almost any one I know. Watching movies or some random tv show is one of my favorite things to do. I feel safe when we hang, like Im home. I love that feeling. We don't see eye to eye on much except Auburn Football but its okay :) My brother deserves the world and then some. :)


:)))

XOXO,
Linds

I thank my God..

everytime I remember YOU...

I forget everyday of the little and big things I have that are so INCREDIBLE in my life. I tend to just to get to caught up in the negative. Good grief my life is blessed, I always look at the things that if they changed would be great. I want to be thankful for the GREAT things and enjoy each moment instead of wishing so hard for change that I miss the amazing moments/amazing people in my life.



Soo I got an amazinggg idea, I really am going to find 3 things/people/moments everyday I am thankful.



My first 3:



#1 - God's Grace. I need this every second of the day. He makes me new everyday, He washes me white as snow, with his mercy and grace, I am forgiven.

"And He said to me, My grace is sufficient for you: My strength is made perfect in weakness." -2nd Corinthians 12:9

#2- My Lorelai. She has hope in me, she believes in me, she took a chance with me. Thats all I need. Plus she's the best shopping buddy I could EVER ask for :)

#3- My Granddaddy :) The best man in the whole universe. God's gift of hope to me. He shows me how I should be treated and is the sweetest little man in the whole worlddd. :)

Im excited, it feels like a new start :)

God is good. Im inspired.

Tweeting to tell you I blogged :D

:D
Yesterday was hard. I found out that my little cousin, Skylar will have to have surgery on her head she has tumors. Now this is possibly the sweetest, caring, hopeful, loving little girl you could ever meet. She could never think of doing anything but good to anyone. She is truly a blessing to everyone she meets. I cant quite comprehend why this could happen, now used to I would just take it in stride and not think twice about it just being the way it was going to be. Unfortunately now, I must ask why? How could this happen? Whats the reasoning? I wish these questions didn't pop up in my head but for now they do. I can only pray desperately for this little girl. I will do this. I know God will hold her in the palm of His hand. I do know this. I will have faith for her, her mom and those who have come in contact with this lovely little lady.

I will push the questions aside and try to not get to deep into questioning God. Its weird to because in English class we talked over Idealism and how it changes as we get older because we get beaten down continuously until we become hard and bitter. I never thought that this would happen when it comes to my Jesus nor do I want it to happen, I will fight this. I will get my faith and hope back. The devil will not take this from me, I will cling to my Father even harder. I will fight.
Hmm, what else has been going on. Had a really tough day at school yesterday, apparently I am the only conservative/republican in my speech class and our group discussion would be War in Iraq. Which means opinions would be the whole class disagreeing with me. It was lovely :). Gotta love them haters. I do believe that the words, “All that Obama has accomplished in his presidency is buy a dog” came out of my mouth. Apparently I'm good at pissing people off, even when I'm not trying. Ha, who woulda thunk it!

I want everyone to like me so bad, ha not a lot of people realize how bad I want friends. I do, really do but I will never compromise my beliefs to be popular. I can't do it. I will stand alone, if thats what it takes to stand for my beliefs.
Ha, not a huge fan of any of my classes either, but these are the basics, gotta get them outta the way so I can enjoy it. Thank God, my major is not psychology, math, english or speech. Not a big fan of those classes dude.
Things that have been on my mind lately: Really really really wanna start practicing my drums more, I wanna learn to play the keyboard, I need to work on getting a 6 pack before next summer, I gotta apply at more places, need a 2nd job, need a car BAD. Ha just a few things!

Okay blah, Ive totally realized how depressing this blog is! Ah okay happy things that are going on: I'm getting to go to alottttt of concerts in the next 3 months. Honor Society (3 times), Love & Theft, Jason Aldean, Dave Barnes, Carter Twins, The Fray & Jessie James. Possibly more too! We all know how much concerts make me happy! Jeeeez :D! Big smilesss about thatttt! I have some really great friends in my life now, super happy :DD. I love thinking about moving to Nashville, that makes me UBERR happy.

I just need to really cherish each moment, Im always waiting for something to happen, or wanting something to happen. I NEED to be happy in the moment I'm in. I want to figure that out! I need to enjoy this time, even through the trials.
I believe that is all for today my loves.

“You are all around me-in front and in back- and have put your hand on me. Where can I go to get away from your Spirit? Where can I run from You? If I rise with the sun in the east and settle in the west beyond the sea, even there you would guide me. With your right hand you would hold me.”
Psalm 139:5,7,9-10

lovelaughlive,
lindsay grace
:D

I will update this more :)

i'll see you in the dark :)

To dream the impossible dream
To fight the unbeatable foe
To bear with unbearable sorrow
To run where the brave dare not go.

To right the unrightable wrong
To be better far than you are
To try when your arms are too weary
To reach the unreachable star

This is my quest, to follow that star,
No matter how hopeless, no matter how far
To be willing to give when there�s no more to give
To be willing to die so that honor and justice may live

And I know if I�ll only be true to this glorious quest
That my heart will lie peaceful and calm when I�m laid to my rest

And the world will be better for this
That one man scorned and covered with scars
Still strove with his last ounce of courage
To reach the unreachable star.


Inspiration fooo the day::::





meeting these guys last night :)))))))))))))))

this picture :) makes me smile big.

this ladyyyy

my wish list at the momenttttt, ladies and gents :)
an iPhone :)))))


my dream carrrrr :) or mainly just a car in general would be greatly appreciated :)



haha anyways.


God is good.


lotsoflove,
linds

rainy days are magical :)

If you were to meet your ten-year-old self, what would you tell her?

wow. I'd have an abundance of knowledge yet no clue what to say to little lindsay. ha.

I think I would say, don't waste as much time on people because pretty much everyone thats in your life won't be there for long. Spend more time with your mom, brother, grandmother & granddaddy cause in the end they're still gonna be there. Be creative, don't be scared to be yourself. Be more outgoing cause your gonna hit an age where it all comes out and maybe you wouldnt be such a loud mouth when you get older if you get some of it out now. Save all the money you can! Work so much harder on high school than anything else. You're gonna meet a little boy one summer at a volunteer service and he's gonna steal your heart & change your life forever. Your best friend will fall in love as soon as ya'll get into high school and won't ever fall out of it, let go of her before she lets go of you. Your mom will always have your back. When it comes to actually dating guys well just don't. None that come your way is gonna be your Todd so just don't waste your time. You're gonna have alot of people come in your life talking alot of talk but they won't back it up, don't trust easily. Friends are gonna come and go, family is gonna turn their back on you, your mom & micah. Your gonna smile alot. Face alot of fears. Achieve more than you thought you could. Push past your limits, face more fears & smile more. Life is gonna take some turns you never expected and make you happier than you thought possible at times. Oh yeah and the whole not eating thing?! Not a good idea! ha! Always make jokes out of everything, it will get on plenty of peoples nerves but do it anyway! Don't be so afraid of driving. God is ALWAYS gonna be your rock. Never doubt your faith, never let the so called Christians you meet make you change your faith. God is there and He absolutely holds your life in His hands. Love Him always with everything you have.

always dream.

oh yeah && don't be such a baby! suck it up.

be a good girl,

18 year old

Colllegee freshman :/

Sorry no blogging lately, Im not the best writerrr so until I just get the writing bug I tend to just think a bunchh and not jot down.
Anywaysss, so I had school orientation yesterday which was great and exciting and scary. Im so sure that Im suppose to be in college but the money part completely freaks me out. Like how do people afford all of this, Im completely freaked beyond anything ive ever been freaked about. Like all the adult worries of money have officially hit lindsay grace.
Okay so here are the things I need money for asap!

College Tuition.
Books.
Parking Pass.
Plus saving for a car.
Insurance.
ughh! plus just like everyday expenses. If only all this money wasnt due at once.
So currently I am freaking out and trying to find ways to figure all this out.
My sperm donor makes to much to get any kind of aid, yet he won't pay for my school and my mom barely makes enough to support us every week.
So def in alot of prayer this week and just hoping some kind of bag drops in my lap with a money sign on it :) that'd be amazing. But God is great and He knows what He's doing. I sure don't.

Life is fantastic, the sun is shining today and I love it.
Everything will work I know! :) Ugh to this whole growing up thing. I shoulda been more prepared, stupid me!


Anyways things that are making my day better today :)))) are:




Green monster :) a cold one.


Sunshineeee :)


getting my hair colored :) it needs it so bad.

&&



jason mraz <3 him and his music :)

lovelovelove,
linds.

S.A.T

all this time i waS wasting hoping you would come around
i’ve been giving out cHances everytime and all you do is let me down
and its taking me this long but baby i figured you out
and you think it will be finE again but not this time around

you don’t have to call anymore
i won’t pick up the phone
this is the last straw
don’t want to hurt anymore
and you can tell me that you’re sorry
but I won’t believe you baby like i did before
you’re not sorry no more, no more, no

lookin’ so innoCent
i might believe you if i didn’t know
could’a loved you all my life
if you hAdn’t left me waiting in the cold
and you got your share of secrets
and i’m tired of beiNg last to know
and now you’re asking me to listen
cause its worked each time before

But you don’t have to call anymore
I won’t pick up the pHone
This is the lAst straw
Don’t want to hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you’re sorry
But I don’t belieVe you baby like I did bEfore
You’re not sorry no no no noo
You’re not sorry no no no noo

You had me calling for you honey
And it never would’ve gone away no
You use to shine so bright
But I watched our love it fade

So you don’t have to call anYmore
I won’t pick up the phOne
This is the last straw
There’s nothing left to beg for
And yoU can tell me that you’re sorry
But I won’t believe you baby like I did before